Its hard to have faith when things are going against you. But I guess thats when you need to have faith the most.
Maybe its karma. Its like if you haven't been good, you get no presents.
In that case, its not "unconditional", but its conditional on whether you're good or not.
Anyways, sometimes things just seem so pointless.
Yes, I can't shop anymore. I am spending more than I make. =(
ok, no christmas shopping for me.
No TV.
No more clothes.
No more boots and shoes.
No more window shopping.
Not for the next 3 mths anyways.
I need to re-evaluate my expenses.
Travel is $. I think I spent a lot of mula on flying back and forth these last couple of months. I still need to travel, but maybe not as much, travel on a budget and make the most out of it while I am there.
:)
I've had quite a busy ride.
And I went boarding. Yes, I fell quite a bit, so buzz off. But it was pretty fun, until I got all sore the next day. haha..
My problem: I like speed a little too much.
Monday: 18!
Busy busy all this week too.
I had a slightly rough day today. But its ok. I will live it through.
:)
its snowing heavily here..
reminds me of the movie I watched recently, "Day after tomorrow"
I want to go snowboarding, or at least try it out for the second time, but its a freaking expensive sport. You need to rent the gear ($30) and lift tickets ($45). Thats at least $75 per trip and you freeze your butt in the cold too.
I didn't even add all the warm clothing you'd need yet. Those are 1 time investment, but its still money down. I mean I don't use my ski pants for anything else other than ski-ing.
Last year, when everyone was complaining that there was no snow and it was too warm, I was the one cheering internally and a bit externally. I don't care for snow much. I mean its pretty and all, but its cold!
Yes, I don't have much to write, but I am in a relatively good mood now, so I want to put it down. I think I have put in enough complainy blogs and I need to perk it up once in a while.
Does it mean I have nothing on my mind? Of course not.
But I'm just feeling more fluffy. hah..
=D
Hm.... maybe I have mood swings! hee hee... =p
Bum too big for injection. The article talks about needles on the butt not being effective for obese women. Its actually gross and difficult for me to read about how they might need to increase the length of the needles.
But seriously, global warming and fattiness! I think we will be going through another evolution period soon.
The grass on the ground and the shrubs are covered with frost.
You use your warmest blanket and you still wake up cold.
You run the hot water for over 10 mins and it still feels just warm.
The weather reports of snow showers in Nov, when it really only snows 2-3 times a year at the place.
Maybe I brought back the snow from T.
I am soooo stuffed.. I don't think I can do much right now.
Its actually a pretty horrible feeling. heh
Anyways, I bet I am going to gain weight by the time I leave.
Its soooo cold here in T. with snow and all. Brrr...
The windchill was crazy. I was cold just running from the car in the parking lot to a building. heh.. reminds me of why I don't like snowy winter and why I wanted to move to a warmer place.
I saw little V today. Soo cute and so active now. I must go back and play with her some more. Cutie little pie.. (don't ask me why people say pie, i just picked up the phrase).
:)
Its good to have all your fav food prepared for you, without you even asking for it and without having to do anything for it.
Am I spoiled? A little and loving every minute of it.
Here is a story I read. I don't know how true or real it is, but it touched me, so I will put it up.
Its not my story.
On the last day before Christmas, I hurried to go to the supermarket to buy the remaining of the gift I didn't manage to buy earlier.When I saw all the people there, I started to complain to myself:"It is going to take forever here and I still have so many other places to go..." Christmas really is getting more and more annoying every year. How I wish I could just lie down,go to sleep and only wake up after it..."Nonetheless, I made my way to the toy section, and there I started to curse the prices, wondering if after all kids really play with such expensive toys.
While looking in the toy section, I noticed a small boy of about 5 years old, pressing a doll against his chest.He kept on touching the hair of the doll and looked so sad.I wondered who this doll was for. Then the little boy turned to the old woman next to him: 'Granny, are you sure I don't have enough money?'
The old lady replied: 'You know that you don't have enough money to buy this doll, my dear.'
Then she asked him to stay there for 5 minutes while she went to look around. She left quickly. The little boy was still holding the doll in his hand. Finally, I started to walk towards him and I asked him who he wanted to give this doll to. 'It is the doll that my sister loved most and wanted so much for this Christmas. She was so sure that Santa Claus would bring it to her.'
I replied to him that maybe Santa Claus will bring it to her after all, and not to worry. But he replied to me sadly. 'No, Santa Claus cannot bring it to her where she is now. I have to give the doll to my mother so that she can give it to her when she goes there.'His eyes were so sad while saying this. 'My sister has gone to be with God. Daddy says that Mummy will also go to see God very soon, so I thought that she could take the doll with her to give it to my sister.My heart nearly stopped. The little boy looked up at me and said:'I told daddy to tell mummy not to go yet. I asked him to wait until I came back from the supermarket.
Then he showed me a very nice photo of him where he was laughing. He then told me: 'I also want mummy to take this photo with her so that she will not forget me. I love my mummy and I wish she doesn't have to leave me but daddy says that she has to go to be with my little sister.Then he looked again at the doll with sad eyes, very quietly. I quickly reached for my wallet and took a few notes and said to the boy.'What if we checked again, just in case if you have enough money?'
'Ok' he said. 'I hope that I have enough.' I added some of my money to his without him seeing and we started to count it.There was enough for the doll, and even some left over. The little boy said: 'Thank you God for giving me enough money'Then he looked at me and added: 'I asked yesterday before I went to sleep for God to make sure I have enough money to buy this doll so that mummy can give it to my sister. He heard me. I also wanted to have enough money to buy a white rose for my mummy, but didn't dare to ask God too much. But He gave me enough to buy the doll and the white rose. You know, my mummy loves white roses '
A few minutes later, the old lady came back again and I left with my trolley.I finished my shopping in a totally different state from when I started.
I couldn't get the little boy out of my mind.Then I remembered a local newspaper article 2 days ago, which mentioned of a drunk man in a truck who hit a car where there was one young lady and a little girl. The little girl died right away, and the mother was left in a critical state. The family had to decide whether to pull the plug on the life-assisting machine, because the young lady would not be able to get out of the coma. Was this the family of the little boy? Two days after this encounter with the little boy, I read in the newspaper that the young lady had passed away.
I couldn't stop myself and went to buy a bunch of white roses and I went to the mortuary where the body of the young woman was exposed for people to see and make last wish before burial. She was there, in her coffin, holding a beautiful white rose in her hand with the photo of the little boy and the doll placed over her chest.
I left the place crying, feeling that my life had been changed forever. The love that this little boy had for his mother and his sister is still, to this day, hard to imagine. And in a fraction of a second, a drunk man had taken all this away from him.
Things are not going exactly as planned, but then things usually don't go as planned.
But I am starting to accept more and look at alternatives. Maybe this is an opportunity for me to do something pretty different.
listening to sammi now.... forgot how much I like her.
she's good.
one of my friend said I need a more positive outlook on life. And I agree. I'll try looking at things in a better angle. if you find me not doing so good, give me a nudge. i'll appreciate it.
so, I've been planning vacation/travel.
I was thinking about
1. Barcelona (was planning on thx-giving, but thats not happening)
2. Kolkata (who's interested? lets go!!)
The tickets are pretty expensive. Maybe I should consider going to a travel agent and see if they can dig up something better for me. I already know a friend visiting. I am just trying to collect more people to go now. It should be fun! ^___^
I am... I am.. getting there.
I think I have to toss out one of my jeans.
Well, it still fits, but its like breaking.
I mean the jeans looks good and perfectly fine everywhere, except..
1. foot on my jeans (why? b/c i am too short, so I drag my jeans around)
2. near my butt (why? b/c i am getting fat and stretching out my jeans)
Haha.. this is my second pair of jeans I gotta toss out because its breaking apart near my hip area. hehe..
Well, at least its not my fav pair yet. :)
Its my second fav pair. *sigh*..
On the bright side, new jeans!!!
I *never* forget to eat.
But today, I forgot I didn't have lunch and it was almost 3 pm before I remembered and it was not even hunger pangs that reminded me. But I was looking for some papers and stumbled across my leftovers.
It shows how swamped I have been or just how I had other things on my mind.
I'm surprised I didn't get cranky. Yes, I get hunger cranks!
I need a vacation.
Heee.... kids came to my place and I gave them candy. I'm so happy. Finally feels like its my home. ^___^
Listening to Andy now. I love Andy. His voice soothes me. NC knows it too. He plays Andy and it soothes my mood a lot of times. ^___^
Man, I made aloo kheera today, I added too much spice. Soo "laat". My mouth was literally on fire. I needed a cold drink and chocolate. Of course, the drink made me sooo cold and then I had to go turn up the heat. So finally I programmed my heat. =)
One of my friends mentioned monsoon to me and it reminded me of monsoon days back home.
When I was a kid, it used to pour in the monsoon season, which lasts from July-Oct or so. My place used to get flooded. Its not a hurricane or anything, but the water level just rose and rose, usually happens at night, but also during the day. It had to do with bad sewage system and the water had nowhere to go. Plus, the fact that my place was kinda down the street with a slight slope did not help.
Anyways, when it rained, my grandma used to piggy back me to school. I had to wear uniform in school, but of course, you didn't want to get your uniforms wet, so I'd be in regular clothes, with uniforms packed and with my flip flop on. Once I get to school, I change in school into my uniform.
Of course, I also had to wade in the water a lot, esp when I got older and my grandma got older. Come to think of it, it was super duper gross. I mean, everything that got flooded out was garbage on the streets and trust me, there were lots AND stuff from the sewage.
Ugh, makes me want to puke now, but seriously, it was dirty. You can see the sh*t in the water. And I am not even joking. Pee, poo, spit, gross stuff, you name it, it was in the water.. gross gross.
ok, I think I have grossed everyone including myself out. I should stop. :)
This is what happens when I work all day until its really early in the morning. I end up being mentally tired but not able to fall asleep.
Worked till 1:30 and its about 2:40 now and I am blogging!
Just great!
I need to start hitting the gym. This stupid work life balance is giving me headaches.
On a slight brighter side, I got a new keyboard at work. And while its not the most ergonomic keyboard there is, it's a lot better than my old one. And my M and N are not mixed up. Haha... almost everyone who has touched my keyboard have gotten a little confused.
I still think a lot about wanting to travel, but I cannot live as vicariously anymore. I have even more bills to pay now. And I better not be late.
I don't think I am really thinking straight right now. Lack of sleep!
I hate the cold and I hate the cramps.
Most people I know can stand the cold better than the heat. I thought so too before. But its soooo cold here that I have changed my mind. Its never hot enough anymore. I want heat, no more cold cold weather.
Tropical places seem sooo much more tempting to live in. But its also just as tempting for germs. Yes, hot, humid places are where a lot of diseases start.
Anyways, cramps go hand in hand with the cold. It usually gets a lot better when I am warm, so you see me, sitting in my office sometimes with a little fleece around me, or a small blanket lying here and there in my place. I even got a hot water bottle, for the cold days and now, an electric warmer. =)
Maybe I should move a bit south... with sun and more sun!!
I know global warming is sooo bad, but I can't help feeling a bit pleased that all places are going to a bit warmer. Of course, I didn't think about those desert places or places close to the equator. =(
Thats it. No more showers, no more bath for me.
Am I being dirty? No. I am trying to not get toxified.
How toxic is your bathroom and the products you are using?
Scary, scary, scary.
Is my water clean? Too clorinated? Not enough clorine? Germs swimming around?
I think I am being a little paranoid and carried away.
But if the products we use to clean ourselves are not safe, what the heck is safe?
I used to wonder if and why hurricanes were given female names.
I found out, there are male names for hurricanes as well.
Then I wondered about how they assign names to hurricanes. Is it the first person who sees it?
Is it the town it first hits?
Apparently, there is a pre-approved list of names for hurricanes.
2005 Hurricane Names
So, we're on the last name now, Wilma. Yes, it goes alphabetically.
What happens if there is more hurricanes after Wilma? Is there a backup list? Do we start 2006 list?
Who assigns these names and keep them non-duplicated over the years?
I haven't posted about medical news in a while. I like reading about the health sections.
Apparently studies show, people are starting to use a lot more sleeping aids. Women more so than men. And I definitely understand why.
Almost all guys I know fall asleep before their heads hit the pillow. They can probably even sleep while standing.
Actually, not all. I know 1 guy who had trouble sleeping, until recently.
Maybe women are more worry warts. And they tend to go over things in their heads at night. If I am pretty tired, I just sleep. But if there is something on my mind, I could toss and turn and toss and turn. Its no fun. I haven't started taking any sleeping meds yet. I don't want to be a druggie.
I am in turmoil.
Maybe I am just really bad at living with ambiquity.
I really don't know what I want anymore.
I've been told that I am a very black and white person and I like extremes. Maybe I am a control freak and I want to know all my answers. I guess the more I am trying to find the answers and the more frustrated I get, the answers (if any) seems more elusive.
** deep breaths **
I get quite a kick out of funny TV or radio commercials.
This one I just heard yesterday. It goes somewhat like this.
.......
"you feel a sensation, something you're not familiar with... you realize your zipper is open and the sensation was that of a cool breeze.. you lunge to get your zipper up with as much speed as you can muster... you're now cut off the open sensation, the good feel... why can't you have the good breeze and open feel as long as your underwear is clean... mini cooper convertible.. open, cool sensation without the embarassment."
well, it was somewhat like that... so funny.
Well, not literally.
But I am forgetting my different languages and its not good.
I need to get my dictionaries and start reading up and brushing up on my languages. Almost feel like I am losing my roots.
ooh... was reading steph's blog today. she's crazy but sooo fun.
constructive conflicts - this is what one of my friends told me today. its interesting.
lemme put up a map.. brings back memories.
I had family visit me, but the whole time my family was here, it drizzled and poured and gloomed up. It was kind of depressing, as we weren't able to sight see well.
Ok, onto my topic of the day. Why do I not want to live in the city?
Its a long drive and the traffic kills me. I would not be able to drop by home and I'd probably die of stress attack and road rage. Of course, there is always carpool, but I like doing things on my own, set my own schedule. The roads never seem big enough or just enough roads. No idea why there are parts of the hwy when its just plain slow.
Do I think being able to walk around town and grab food and other stuff is worth living downtown? No way!
Plus, there's is no good metro system here.
I have been talking to people who do a lot of extra-curricular activities, who have a relatively balanced life outside work, people who have real hobbies and while its inspiring, it makes me wonder about what the heck am I doing? btw, did I mention I think I am going through a quarter life crisis?
On the brighter side of things, I went fishing last weekend. It was raining (boo) and as a result, cold. But it was pretty fun, maybe because I was running and splashing around in the water, haha.. Yes, we caught some salmon.
Back to my confused world.
Whats my passion?
Whats my talent?
Whats my mission?
Whats the point?
Am I a lost soul?
Why do I have so many questions and so few answers?
Am I kidding myself?
Btw, I really hate how these stupid online photo storing sites are deleting my pictures/shrinking my pictures. I don't trust them anymore. I better make backups.
I can't believe I got TAG-ed.
Worse, I can't believe I am following this TAG ritual.
Thought #1 I hate chain mails. Especially useless, annoying ones. And instead of forwarding it, I always delete it. Which is why I am surprised I am writing this.
Thought #2 Kids have great ambition. This is before they get jaded and cynical. I remember I wanted to be a teacher, pilot. I think I wanted to be something else every 6 months or so. I don't think I ever thought about how much each profession made.
Thought #3 When you are asked to think about anything, thats when you go "what should I think about" And when you are trying to tell yourself not to think so much, you end up thinking "don't think so much" over and over again. Freaking annoying and ironic.
Thought #4 Good tasting food are not as healthy, as food that tastes bland. Maybe its just a mind trick. The forbidden food, like oily fatty stuff, sweets, tastes yum yum.
Thought #5 I just went through a filtering, to decide what I need to put down. Some of the stuff, too personal, some other stuff, to related to what I just said, its almost like a continuation. If we were bold and fast enough to write down everything we think, we'd be tired for sure, but would we be happier?
ok, thats all.
TAG-ing - piglet, moo, ho_gary, sly, cc
I got a new testimonial!
I looooove testimonials. Thx thx!
I had a huge list of to do things for this wkend and how much did I get done, not much at all.
I spent most of today, visiting places and going with friends to check out new houses.
Saw some really cool, spanking new places. Damn expensive as well. We saw a bunch of half a mil places. Its really nice, and we were kidding around how 6 of us should just get it and 2 peeps share 1 level. So, its like a condo/apt with 3 levels, each level has its own room, washroom and living room, with the kitchen on the main level only.
Its actually pretty depressing to look at those places, because it only makes you realize that you dont have the means.
Of course, these nice places are good for more than just 1 person.
I was talking to this dude on Sat nite, and he bought a place, with a drive of 35 mins to work, with no traffic, so with traffic it takes an hour or so, or a lot more if its rush hour.
I just think its crazy and the reason he bought it there, was cheaper for the space. A 4 bedroom with 1 person living in it only. Good thing is, he is getting it for investment purposes and he plans to sell it next year. Bad thing is, horrible traffic and it doesn't help that gas now costs an arm and a leg.
Anyways, can't compare. I am still busy trying to figure things out for myself. =)
I took a jager bomb last nite. It was nasty. I didnt know how it would taste like. I can't believe they mixed Red Bull with Jager. I had a slight after taste of cough syrup or something medicinally with the jager bomb. Yuck!
Went to the bookstore yesterday and happened to pick up this book, titled "20 something, 20 everything". It talks about the quarter-life crisis, faced by many of us. And specifically, it is speaking towards a female audience. It was actually pretty scary to be reading it and relate a lot to what is actually being shared by other people. It asks a lot of questions, which I still don't know answers to. I had to put it down, because I was almost scaring myself, with all those questions. I am thinking about picking the book up, and just coming to terms with what I want to get out of life now. :)
Its sad to know that I don't do a lot of things outside of work.
I have a list of things I want to do and life I don't want to just pass by me, but I barely notice it slipping as I slouch over my desk.
I am debating about money vs career vs life.
I do want it all, but at what cost?
A lot of "I"s in this post, but I feel finding a balance is important to me. I am only stiffling myself by doing nothing. Not to mention all work and no life makes me a stressed out person. And stress hurts.
Plus, I am paying for my gym without using it. I should make use of my membership. Thats my goal for now.
Also, I want to pick up something else. Learning new things, make things, do little things I like. I miss all that, without realizing it until now.
Some of my friends are going back to school. I want to too, but not yet? Will I have trouble picking school up again?
........ er.....
memory lapse! thats all!
Its good to have wireless connection. I am able to update my blog now, while I am waiting at the dealership for them to service my car. Why can't I take a loaner? Well, for one I don't want to drive back and drive here again. Its too far.
Anyways, so I have been able to do a lot of my email catching up using free wireless here. However, there is this girl who is also waiting for her car's service and she was flipping through a magazine. I move from the couch to a table, where I can put my laptop down so I can type properly and she also moves to sit somewhat behind me. I mean its a huge space and there are so many open seats. Heh.. I am sure she just decided to plop down there because of some interesting magazine, but still. =p
Not a lot new. I am trying out G Talk now. I have only IM-ed 1 person so far and haven't used the "call" feature yet, so its too early to give an opinion on that. Very simple so far. Maybe too simple? But I believe simplicity is important, because its all about simplicity for G products.
I should seriously start watching my finance but once you decide to watch what you spend, you feel like shopping all the more. Its really weird, but I haven't been shopping much lately, at least I don't think so. And now that I know I should watch my spendings, I just want to go shopping and getting stuff. Maybe its the stress. You know shopping is an awesome stress buster. But its only temporary. The stress comes back in greater dosage when bills appear.
I think I need a change. Change something. We'll see how things go.
Sometimes, I just don't understand some girls.
I'm not talking about little things either. I mean, sometimes, you really know a guy is bad for you. And I know it can be a 1 time mistake sometimes, but how do they trust so easily again?
Besides, why can't they be stronger? I mean, there are plenty of people out there, plenty of nice guys out there, some just need a bit of a kick in the butt!
This is category 1 of the girls I don't understand.
The other category, stand up for something. I mean how can you say "Lets not be together" and then do stuff? And go back and forth b/w guys! Hello, you give us a bad name and while I am all about equality, do as guys do, they gotta take the bad names with it too. Dogs and female dogs.
Sigh... I am being so mean. I don't understand. I try to put myself in their shoes, but its very damn difficult, I keep thinking "Of course I won't do this". Maybe "getting over" is easier said than done.
But seriously, someone please knock some sense into these girls.
It seems like a season of break-ups. A bunch of people I know broke up. Kind of sad, since I thought they seemed really cute.
Booooreeeed and its not for lack of work. Quite the opposite actually, my plate is quite full, but I am getting sick of it.
I need a break/vacation.
Plus, I haven't been getting good sleep. Its not because I am sleeping late or anything either. Its just that I wake up tons of times. Broken sleep and having thoughts running wildly in your sleep is not a good thing.
Was going to do Boston. However, things didn't pan out. It would have been good to have a mini vacation, but I have personal stuff to take care of and having family visit. Plus, it'd have been good, if I could have just taken a day off instead of more.
Precious precious days.
People who don't take their vacation days and waste them because you cannot carry them over are crazy. Why would you do that?
I finally had my biriyani. Turned out pretty good, maybe add a little more salt and spice next time. A little bland and I should add a little less aloo. Hehe... it was no surprise my biriyani was the biriyani with most aloo I've ever had.
I think I should make use of my dentistry plan. Haven't gotten my teeth checked out in ages. Maybe I have some more cavities now, though I don't consume as much chocolates anymore, or maybe I am just fooling myself.
I feel like there is so many things to do, but my butt is sooo damn lazy. Just want to veg. Its a sign of aging. =(
Also, its very sad when there are all these little kiddies out with music and I think they have squeeky voices and no singing talent. I mean I use to listen to a bunch of those things before and they annoy me sometimes now. sad sad..
well, i went to play golf couple of times. I suck. Very inconsistent and not good swings. I need practice, but its tough.
hm... I should try hitting the gym more. Else, I am letting money get taken out from my pay every mth for nothing.
Work, here I come!
Haha.. I think I should relabel this page to be a rant page, as it seems thats what I do here mostly.
But anyways!
2 person
a. Call him L-I (lazee intern). He comes in past lunch time, plays games most of the time, snubs other people, can't work independently, comes late for his demo, demos screenshots (nothing working).
b. Call her Denwa.
Originality: from where I am originally from.
Gets "tiffin" and eats in my damn office.
New - but skips meetings, trainings like she knows everything.
But is she really doing work? Nah, she's on IM and denwa everyday.
"Hallo? L0v3r Boi... I ate blah today.. blah blah blah..."
Ok, I think I should stop.
Yes, I know I can be mean, now, get off my back. hehe
I need to make some puchkas. I bought some of the shells. Now, to make the fillings.
Chummy - Happy B!
Oh, so I am watching "24" season 1 and I have a love-hate relationship with it. Why? Its interesting, but its too slow for me.
A lot of the characters are annoying the heck out of me. I think I am just cruel, because most people would be sympathetic. Well, some people also find the char annoying, but I am pretty extreme.
I want HP Bk 7!!. Sigh... its not going to be out for another 2 years.
Ok, back to insects squashing.
Sometimes there's way too much to do.
Sometimes there's nothing to do.
More often, I don't want to do what I'm supposed to do.
I dunno what to do.
Something I was thinking about this morning.
Is it more cruel to chop up an animal (say pork, chicken) before you eat it or to pull off meat directly off of it?
Biryani!
Vada! Mutton roll!
Butter Chicken!
Puchkas!!
:(
How long have I been back? I miss the food already. There's no cheap food here. Samosas are well over a buck per samosa and its usually re-fried.
I think I have to attempt to make biryani again. I've been pouring over some more biryani recipes. Its quite a lot of work and nowhere as good as the ones I buy in T. *drool*
Maybe I should try to find puchkas too and when I find it here and make the aloo for it, no one (no bro or sis) to fight over with. muhahaha...
Ship me some foood, you ppl in T. I can reheat, I got microwave. =
To summarize in very few words about what happened in T: I ate & ate & ate. Well, it was more like... I was fed & fed & fed. Heh.. Good stuff though.
Hm... when's my next vacation? =)
There are 2 new (1 relatively new) "ah-zhak" girls on my team. Neither of them are pretty. Haha... tells you about the beauty of the girls in this industry, in general. :p
Last comment: I hate moo...
Reason: Blog reminding me of samosa king.
heh!
Define odor neutralizers.
To me: this is something that takes the bad odor away and leaves no smell.
But apparently, to some it means overpowering the odor with some other smell much stronger so that you cannot smell the odor anymore. However, usually the overpowering smell needs to be extra strong to mask the first and by becoming EXTRA strong, its no longer smells good.
Did you know some people have no sense of smell?
You don't believe it? Just sit in my office for a few days. You will eventually have someone pass by, someone who downed a bottle of perfume or cologne on themselves. Either the person is aiming to keep away at more than a 100 yards length for something, or aims to knock ppl dead.
Aside from that, hello to Canada. It has been soooo long, but I finally visited Vanc in like ages and next stop, hello T.
You know, I don't take weekends for granted anymore. Weekends are never free, you use them up at a cost. Not for you? Hm...
Last few activities:
camping - saw a deer, my campsite attracted raccoons, yummy toasted marshmellows.
vanc - food foood fooood + a change of appearance
greenlake - soaked up some sun
Congrats to all in T.
There are a bunch of new young ones in T. Should be fun!!
Black black candy - hi-technical taste with power caffeine?
Hee... its funny. Jpn has so much crazy stuff. I have to try this and see how I like it. Note to self: don't try it at night. I'd pull my hair out being awake all night.
Tomorrow, I am going to watch my first Star wars movie ever. Have I not watched other ones before? Phantom, Clones ?? nope nope, none. Didn't really know anything about star wars before I heard of people going crazy over Phantom. I mean long lineups, waiting in line, watching at midnight. I didn't know what the craze was. I guess its a NA thing.
Long wkend coming up, no, not this wkend. Nothing planned yet. I just want to go somewhere out of town and not do work, not think work, not login from home. sigh...
Maybe I'll go shopping. haha..
Go vanc to shop. Did I mention I haven't been there in ages?
How do you tell what your mother tongue is? I thought I was pretty comfy with Eng, but sometimes I find myself, unconsciously saying something, or meaning to mutter something to my bf in my mother tongue. Of course, poor guy is confused and then I realize and switch back immediately. He just thinks I attempted to speak something to him in his lang and didn't get very far. :p
And aloo is the best, shortest word for aloo. Other langs I know doesn't come anywhere close to the simplicity of aloo. Maybe because its such a staple food back in aloo-land. :)
I've been so busy at and outside of work, I haven't had time for much.
And when I did, I just wanted to bum.
Hee hee..
Its getting chilly here these days so that kind of sucks.
Whats new? Work's the same, more busy than ever.
Other stuff, ups and downs, new addition to the family (extended).
Saw a couple of pics already. She's gonna be spoiled. =p
I went clubbing this last wkend. Haven't been out in a long while. Out meaning, doing other things besides just dinner with people. I did mention that I have been super busy right? :)
Talk to Kevin once in a while these days, since he started msging me.
Good to catch up once in a while. Also interesting to know whats happening with him.
Gosh, my days are melding together! I don't remember anything.
Oooh, friend came to interview and then came to down again for another interview. Ate a good meal with him, very yummy, at company's expense. Thats what made it so fun. Too bad I couldn't sit around some more. Work pressure.
But I did make it to 2 NBA playoff games and we won those 2. I was happy. Pretty cheap tickets, not bad seats. Was thinking of going for more games, but we just got killed last time. I hate to watch us losing. =(
okie, more workie.
So, I found pakora in this indian snack/video store. They have onion pakoras. Gosh, their menu was hard to read, hand-written on a board, pretty small.
Anyways, it tasted not too bad intially, until I came across a bigger piece which was still wet inside. If you know how pakoras are made, you would know what I am talking about, the uncooked yellow powder stuff. I hate that uncooked stuff.
Hm... getting hungry thinking about it, but I think I'll wait till I get some from T dot.
I also got a couple of samosas. Paid $1 per samosa. I was not happy, because I could have gotten 4-5 for $1 cdn. But get it I did, to try it out.
1. It was too brown, I think they were stale ones refried
2. The insides weren't too tasty. I only ate like 3/4 of one.
I never waste samosas or pakoras. Samosas got aloo in it. So, very disappointed in the samosas. Pakoras, maybe I'll have to give it another try. Or maybe I'll make it myself.
Talking about my aloo, makes me think of dosa and how someone who wanted a "small bite" of my dosa grabbed like a handful of my dosa fillings.
Some people wouldn't have minded that, but not me. I love the damn filling. As it was, that place I went to had little filling and I was eating it in proportion to my dosa skin, so that I don't have too much skin left or too much filling left (usually not). I was steaming inside when my precious aloo filling was taken. Hate the dude! Never going to ask/call him for lunch/dinner. He's a kanjoose too.
Ok, thats all.
I got my tickets for T. Expensive, expensive, I better make the most of my trip. :)
I got talking about stubbornness with my co-workers/friends. Some can tell I am quite stubborn, others are mildly surprised. Which one is the compliment? hehe
Had a hellish day at work yesterday. Keep getting more and more problems, all very last minute. It was driving me insane. It means I got to work this weekend, but its to nice outside. Feels like summer to me.
Watched "Miss Saigon" last week. It was not as good as I expected, but then I think I had too high expectations of it. Pretty good still. Then I went for a within company play yesterday. Done my people working here, everything, acting, directing, props, lights, blah. "The MouseTrap" by Agatha Christie. Good, good. :)
And I got some new Andy songs. I need a "V" (peace) sign. hahaha..
;)
Aiming for:
I should stop... I am drooling all over my keyboard. =
What mutton rolls? Chauhan is ok. I prefer snacky stuff more. Stinky tofu - maybe. Whats taiwanese style popcorn chicken? Hmm..... I need to compile a real list. *Drool*.... What other tw cuisine are there?
I didn't know Glo was working OT. Me "j" too, me work lots of OT, but no get OT mula. =(
haha... by the time I leave, I'll get quadruple chins, but don't you laugh at me! =p
I love girls!!
I love girl nights!!
Haha.... its like I am high on something. :)
I'm sooo excited, thinking about visiting home and all the stuff I could do, all the food. Oh, fooood.
hehe... Moo better be free and take me and piggy out. Or he'll get an earful from me and piggy.
party party!!! I got viv to say I need to drag her out. heee
woo hoo!!!
ok, back to work. =)) <-- thats my double chin, heh!
I was looking at some old photo albums I had online and I came across one that we took when we went out for dinner with Fong. A bunch of us (3 girls) were treating her + D for their recent "shaadi". That was around mid-March. Can't believe its been 2 years already!!!
And now she's about to have a "baccha".
Me getting old!
Me want to go party!
Me wants piggy to party with me!
Me don't care about moo moo!! haha
I was trying to get a hold of Glo today. That little bum, hiding away and watching TV.
Stupid junk, bad performance, stupid things to take care of.
Thats my reaction after an unproductive day of work. And its not because I was slacking, far from it.
Took a look at a friend's PSP today. Very very good resolution. I was watching part of Spiderman, which came with the PSP. It was nice for a small portable. It looked bigger than I remembered (when I first played with it in Tokyo) and the bad thing about watching movies on it is that there is nowhere to dock it.
Oh, my friend uploaded some pictures on the PSP. So much better than Ipod photo. Picture looks bigger, color is better and you can zoom in. Thats the one thing that bugs me most about Ipod photo, you can only see it as big as the size of the screen with no zoom. PSP, you can zoom and go left/right, almost like a hand drag. :)
Now, they need a way to plug out from PSP to TV or something. I am sure it'll be there soon.
Hah.. read an article about guys using it to hold their "ham bhin". =p
Met friend's gf today, she's so skinny and tiny, makes me look like a fat cow beside her. Hehe..
But I can't starve or diet, so I guess I'll stay fat.
I need a vacation or I need to go home.
Happy Happy Easter!
Eat lots of eggs! hehe.
Its sooo rainy here. Gloooomy all day!
I don't think I am going to see my cute guy friend from school for sometime. So sad. =(
I'm quite a scatter-brain today.
One person I know said this over the weekend. This was with reference to a guy friend who's super duper nice, esp to her. She said "if I wanted a dog, I would just go and buy a dog". I was like "WOAH!!!".
Funny to hear it coming from her, because she's a nice person.
Different thought: I think some people rub me the wrong way. Or maybe I am just being extra defensive. Anyways, this person knows me pretty well and just the things/way things are said, makes me go "are you deliberately trying to make me mad?"
I heard piggy is ok again and went out sat night huh? I had a spy planted at your house!! haha.
Btw, I saw a pic of someone you met last time I came back. *wink*. Ask me.
I got a call from a friend who I haven't spoken with in ages. Well, ok I do see her online every now and then, maybe like once in a few months or so, but I haven't seen her since 1998 and never talked to her besides IM since then.
We went to school together way back... when we were kids. Hehe..
And it was interesting because I have someone else besides my family I can talk in my mother tongue with. At first, it started out strange, with both of us speaking in English and her with a little tiny bit of accent. Then, I made the switch and she responded.. hee hee
Its funny, how your subconsciousness comes into play. I remember once asking my bf something in my mother tongue and he totally didn't understand. Then it registered that he doesn't understand, so I reverted back to english. :)
Congratulations to Karen + Michael!
Congratulations to Fran + Helen!
I found out in the span of 3 hrs that these 2 lovely couples recently got engaged. I haven't had a chance to talk to Karen yet, but I talked to Fran already. So romantic, his proposal. =)
^_^
Yes, I am. Again!!
Work's been crazy lately and I don't see myself not working crazy for the next couple of months. Seems like I got a lot of stuff I need to improve/work on. Makes me think about other career options.
I'm just so tired these days. I feel really sleepy all the time. Maybe my lack of sleep is catching up to me.
So, I've been keeping an eye on tickets, to Toronto. Well, for those that don't know yet, Jetsgo went down and the other airline vultures are just scooping in. The tickets have risen considerably, so that its as much as high 500 - low 600. Insanity, considering that low $400 were too expensive when I was checking for tickets before.
And gas?? Holy, it costs an arm + leg right now. I need to get a hybrid car.
Over the last 2 wkends, I went ice-skating and roller blading. Am I getting any better at it? Don't think so. Its fun for sometime, I don't think I can get too crazy about it. One of my friends is asking me if I want to enrol in a ice-hockey team and I wouldn't mind trying it out, except I don't think I have the time to go so far for practice and game couple of times a week. I barely have time to sleep.
Last but not least - I neeed money. Help? :)
I'm so homey this weekend. Well, the weekend is not over yet, so yesterday and today.
Last night, didn't go anywhere. Had "da bin lo" at my place. They couldn't find a split bowl so we ended up with 2 bowls, which turned out pretty good I must say. There were soo much food and I had all the beef and fish balls I wanted. It was sooo yummy. Then, the rest of them gathered to play mahjong. Now, I understand how people just sit for hours playing mahjong. I understand the game a bit more now, but I think I am missing out a lot of the fun lost in translations when they trash talk in Chinese.
Today, is my lazy day. Mostly bumming at home, doing some work, sleeping, surfing. Wasn't tempted to step out until much later. But most ppl were OOT and too lazy to drive all the way to west side. Haha... notice the laziness theme. I wish I went to Vancouver today. I haven't been there in ages and I wanna have good food there.
Well, so I went to find a Hindi movie. Yes, I have been craving to watch an indian movie for sometime. Its fun to watch. For those who think its stupid, with overacting and people dancing, yes, there are those, but its fun for me. Analogy for the chinese peeps. You watch some chinese movies, they always have a side, prolly silly funny character and some really silly acting and jokes. But you grew up with it, so its amusing to you.
Sorry, got side-tracked. So, I went to find a movie, beside this indian grocery store I usually go to, it was insanely packed with people crawling all over the place. I think I picked a bad time to go. Anyways, so I was getting some weird looks but no stares. I find a couple of interesting new releases that I want to watch and then I find out that they are out on all the DVDs for the movies I want. Only VHS left. If I were in TO, I'd pick it up without a second thought. Doesn't matter that much to me and VHS is cheaper. But no VHS player here and roomie doesn't have one either. So, while I was driving out, I thought, maybe I could borrow one. So, called up 2 ppl and one of them had it. (See all the trouble I am willing to go through. I really wanted to watch a hindi movie) but since I was already driving, I think I remembered seeing where another indian grocery store was. I dropped by there and sure enough, there was another indian movie rental place connected to it as well and they had plenty of DVDs left.
:)
The 2 DVDs I got:
1. Raincoat - Aishwarya Rai, Ajay Devgan
2. Swades - Shahrukh Khan
Its been pretty boring and quiet here. Been out to eat a lot, which means meals costed a lot. And then there was the occasional party here and there.
It was good to go clubbing though, minus the smoke etc. Dancing is good, very good for me. Keeps me healthy/active.
I hate people who smoke and dance. Well, hate is a strong word. I dislike it.
They could easily burn the people around them if they or the people around them are not careful, or dancing in a more carefree manner. Even if they claim they are careful, its just not good enough. Why? Because you're drunk or buzzed, or I don't know you're not. If you can spill a drink on someone or on the floor, I don't see how you can't burn someone with your smoke.
Some people wear very tight clothes. I know, my jeans are not baggy either. But sometimes, I see people wearing clothes so tight and it does not look like the stretchable kind or when I see some meat spewing out, its not a good sight. :p
I wonder how they breathe in it, or how they can manage to move. I know some of my tighter pants do give me that problem, but thats why I don't wear them anymore. ;-)
hehe... I have wondered time and again, how do people actually SQUEEZE themselves into super tight, non-stretchy clothing. I've seen examples in school and I see examples here. Won't name names, of course. Some people are more sensitive. :p
Oh, we went to play whirlyball last week. Team event, because of something we achieved as a team 6 mths ago. It was a test of patience and skills. I could see some flare in slight tempers, impatience (mine included) and trash talk. Overall, it was pretty fun, until I had to play 5-6 times or so. The next day, my shoulder was sore, from having my hand up all the while.
Btw, whirlyball is a cross of bumper car and lacross.
I went to Melting Pot. We had cheese fondue (it was filling and very good), salad, entree which is raw meat and you cook fondue style (gwai lo style, instead of chinese) which turned out pretty good. Then we had a free dessert fondue. We had 6 + 1 late comer, all working on 2 set for 2 and we were stuffed. I liked the winsconsin trio cheese fondue, very distinctive/bold taste. For anyone interested and know of Melting pots around in their areas and like chocolate, they have a Happy Hour everyday. haha.. I'll stop advertising.
ok, time to get some more work done before I sleep.
http://www.balkan-division.com/download/basket.swf
They're all crazy to try it.
All star wkend!! Pretty cool. I need a big TV!!
Moo is not stressed. Moo just has a voracious appetite! :p
You know how you sometimes get cravings for something. If you don't, you're not normal.
Anyways, I get cravings for salty junk food. It has to be salty or spicy. Sweets/candies just don't cut it. I got the cravings for chips right now. Oh, its making me drool, just thinking about it. Maybe I should visit the vending machine.
Btw, vending machines are a rip off. So expensive for a small bag of chips. Why do I still go to vending machines? Because its convenient and I don't want to leave a bigger bag of chips or multiple small bags of chips lying around at work or home. They won't stay beyond a few days.
I know having a little restrain would be good, but its near impossible with bag of chips sitting in my sight or even if it is hidden, knowing its there and hidden.
Let me see how much change I have. I attribute all my fats to junk food and stress. I pig out on junks when I am stressed. :)
** start nursery rhyme music**
One little piglet went for a walk
Saw some white stuff and did not stall
Stepped through the fluffy snow, onto ice
Thats how piglet took a deep fall
la..la ... la..
** end nursery ryhme music**
Thats for you, piggy!
Nothing is new, insanely busy. Getting tired of being busy.
Plus, bills bills bills. Not fun, not when you have to pay.
Other new events: I went to Portland and Seaside. Sad thing is, I totally forgot to bring my camera, so no pictures. On the bright side, I did some shopping and got away from work for a while (which is rare)
Did I mention I have a sore throat? Its killing me. I'm constantly downing huge glasses of warm water and running to the loo. (heh, yea you needed to know that)
okie, lots of work awaits me.
ps.
si dan jai - there were no new post and you didn't answer any of my questions!!
Macau, Christmas 2004
I like this picture. It looks like a European place. :)
No, I don't know any of those people in the picture. I just took it to get the lighting right ( a test run), but it turned out pretty good.
No, I am not super happy. I'm tired. But I don't want a non-upbeat title. :)
CNY is coming up. At times like this, I miss home.
There's always so much going on at home. Maybe its just because there's more people at home and more people are talking to you. Miss all the food, all the fun.
Happy CNY !!
I got chocolates. 8D
Ferrero Rochers. It all started with my telling Dan that he should not resist Ferrero Rochers. :)
I need to work on my puzzle. I should finish it and then hunt for a frame. Frames are soo expensive. I hate finding a puzzle frame and the place where I get the puzzle from, either doesn't sell it or comes at a super high price. I've only gotten one custom frame so far. Perfect fit, its awesome and cheap. Bad part, bought it from HK, so unless there is someway for me to order from HK and shipped to US with no breakage and just as cheap, then its worth a shot.
I tried on a mask today. First time EVER, as in ever ever.. for me.
Its kind of freaky. First, it was so difficult to take the mask out nicely, since I didn't want to tear it into shreds. Then, putting it on your face... makes you look really odd, eyes, nose, mouth peeking out from under huge wet overlapping white wrapping. But its supposed to be good for my skin, hydrates it. Lets see if I feel/see any results. Too bad I only have 1 of it. It was a sample from Olay. :)
I like useful samples.
I got gorgeous flowers in my room. :)
Got 2 bunches last week. Last week was special. :)
Himbo, meaning man-candy. :)
Its an awesome word!
Its an awesome day!
Feels like spring here. :)
I love his songs. He soothes me. Not all, of course, but a few of them.
M - miss you, babe.
For those of you who thinks its because of my party, yes, but thats not the main reason now.
I know some of the most romantic guys.
In the last 3 months, 2 of my friends who work in the same company as me, proposed to their gfs. And both of them did things in a very very romantic way. I am sitting here (at work), listening to the second one recount how things went and its making me cry. I'm so happy for them and so happy for their fiancees. Wishing them the utmost happiness, which I am sure they are going to share with their loves.
I don't know if I can recount their stories without their permissions, but if you ask me, I might give you an idea. I know I can tell you the other one in a week or so. :)
That makes 3 people getting married this year here from this city that I know. More, please. :p
Btw, I had a lovely lovely party this wkend. Thanks to everyone and that someone special. =)
Giant baby born in Brazil. The baby weighs 17 pounds. Isn't that like carrying twins except its not twins? My first reaction was "Poor mother, having to carry that and go through childbirth with the giant baby". Scary!
3G phones: While they are cool and you can see the person you are talking to, as well as the background, live or you can get TV, music, gaming with other people, on your 3G phones, I think there are drawbacks.
3G phones emits higher rate of radiation. Maybe not a good enough reason for some of you.
Now, you can't say you're busy when you're not. Of course, its not honest, blah blah blah, but you get the idea. :)
Oh, here's an article about a man applying statistics or some pattern/formula to lottery numbers and he came so close. Its interesting. I wonder if the lottery people are going to add more numbers or randomize the picking even more now.
Let me know if you wanna take a peek at them. Msg me. :)
I waxed this morning. If you asked me before that I would have told you that waxing is not that painful, its quite bearable. This morning was not fun, but I still hold to my claim.
If you are thinking "its winter, why wax when you can show your legs off", here are my reasons.
1. When I lotion, the lotion gets to the hair more than to my skin, so my hair gets plenty of nourishment and grow faster.
2. After waxing, there are more open space, more pores, so more moisturizer can be absorbed.
Call me crazy, but I do think about these things.
Oh, Hawaii's silence is invaded by frogs. One of my friends just got back from Hawaii and went to the Big Island as well. Wonder if he heard anything. hehe..
I don't think I've had it said to me much, well, even a little, before. Now, its been made very clear to me how much of a geek I am not, by people around me at work and people I hang around with. I think soon it will become something like "you can't join in what we read/do/talk about, because you're not G enough".
I have been spoiled by my vacations. I can't work long crazy hours anymore, either that or I am coming down with something. My head feels heavy in the evening. I need to get more rest. Vacation was spent somewhat in running around, though it was fun and good running around.
Oh, I detest highly scented un-natural smell. I cannot stand lotions or other beauty products that smell and does not fade. Initially I thought that if I was on my hands or something not too close to my nose, it should be ok. Not at all. It drives me insane when I get a whiff of it. I have this need to peel off the skin layer which is embedded in the smell. Ok, not so drastic, but you get the idea. So, while I never did look for any heavy fragrance stuff before, now I shy away from it. I need very light, almost-or-not-at-all scented products.
Its funny how some products I used about a 6 months to a year ago, which I thought was pleasant drives me insane now. Just shows how we change constantly or how I learn more about what I like. :)
I need to spend more time to take care of my appearance, but I am so lazy sometimes. I end up postponing stuff, or leave it as good enough for now. And it does not help that its cold.
Alright, time to polish up the pictures.
My manager's manager is awesome.
I am doing something I was pretty sure I wasn't ever going to mention in my blog, but this is totally un-related to anything. I think he's awesome, because he's serious about stuff, but makes things really interesting by cracking hilarious jokes.
Ok, no more.
I think my new hair-colour is a good change. I've had a few people comment on it and thats a huge huge compliment. ;)
It was totally worth the price, which was good & cheap and possible hair damage from the colouring chemicals. haha
I am so conceited. :p
I am starting to like funky punk music more. Maybe I am not catagozing the music right and I don't know exactly what it falls into, but its good. Love Psychedelico.
Its Friday, the week flew by pretty fast. I think I am getting back into my normal sleep schedule and it feels good. Life is good! :)