Happy Halloween!

Heee.... kids came to my place and I gave them candy. I'm so happy. Finally feels like its my home. ^___^

Listening to Andy now. I love Andy. His voice soothes me. NC knows it too. He plays Andy and it soothes my mood a lot of times. ^___^

Man, I made aloo kheera today, I added too much spice. Soo "laat". My mouth was literally on fire. I needed a cold drink and chocolate. Of course, the drink made me sooo cold and then I had to go turn up the heat. So finally I programmed my heat. =)

Monsoon

One of my friends mentioned monsoon to me and it reminded me of monsoon days back home.

When I was a kid, it used to pour in the monsoon season, which lasts from July-Oct or so. My place used to get flooded. Its not a hurricane or anything, but the water level just rose and rose, usually happens at night, but also during the day. It had to do with bad sewage system and the water had nowhere to go. Plus, the fact that my place was kinda down the street with a slight slope did not help.

Anyways, when it rained, my grandma used to piggy back me to school. I had to wear uniform in school, but of course, you didn't want to get your uniforms wet, so I'd be in regular clothes, with uniforms packed and with my flip flop on. Once I get to school, I change in school into my uniform.

Of course, I also had to wade in the water a lot, esp when I got older and my grandma got older. Come to think of it, it was super duper gross. I mean, everything that got flooded out was garbage on the streets and trust me, there were lots AND stuff from the sewage.
Ugh, makes me want to puke now, but seriously, it was dirty. You can see the sh*t in the water. And I am not even joking. Pee, poo, spit, gross stuff, you name it, it was in the water.. gross gross.

ok, I think I have grossed everyone including myself out. I should stop. :)

Burning Early Morn Oil

This is what happens when I work all day until its really early in the morning. I end up being mentally tired but not able to fall asleep.
Worked till 1:30 and its about 2:40 now and I am blogging!
Just great!

I need to start hitting the gym. This stupid work life balance is giving me headaches.

On a slight brighter side, I got a new keyboard at work. And while its not the most ergonomic keyboard there is, it's a lot better than my old one. And my M and N are not mixed up. Haha... almost everyone who has touched my keyboard have gotten a little confused.

I still think a lot about wanting to travel, but I cannot live as vicariously anymore. I have even more bills to pay now. And I better not be late.

I don't think I am really thinking straight right now. Lack of sleep!

Stinking cramps

I hate the cold and I hate the cramps.
Most people I know can stand the cold better than the heat. I thought so too before. But its soooo cold here that I have changed my mind. Its never hot enough anymore. I want heat, no more cold cold weather.

Tropical places seem sooo much more tempting to live in. But its also just as tempting for germs. Yes, hot, humid places are where a lot of diseases start.

Anyways, cramps go hand in hand with the cold. It usually gets a lot better when I am warm, so you see me, sitting in my office sometimes with a little fleece around me, or a small blanket lying here and there in my place. I even got a hot water bottle, for the cold days and now, an electric warmer. =)

Maybe I should move a bit south... with sun and more sun!!

I know global warming is sooo bad, but I can't help feeling a bit pleased that all places are going to a bit warmer. Of course, I didn't think about those desert places or places close to the equator. =(

Toxicity everywhere!

Thats it. No more showers, no more bath for me.
Am I being dirty? No. I am trying to not get toxified.
How toxic is your bathroom and the products you are using?
Scary, scary, scary.

Is my water clean? Too clorinated? Not enough clorine? Germs swimming around?
I think I am being a little paranoid and carried away.
But if the products we use to clean ourselves are not safe, what the heck is safe?

Katrina, Rita, Wilma

I used to wonder if and why hurricanes were given female names.
I found out, there are male names for hurricanes as well.

Then I wondered about how they assign names to hurricanes. Is it the first person who sees it?
Is it the town it first hits?
Apparently, there is a pre-approved list of names for hurricanes.
2005 Hurricane Names
So, we're on the last name now, Wilma. Yes, it goes alphabetically.
What happens if there is more hurricanes after Wilma? Is there a backup list? Do we start 2006 list?
Who assigns these names and keep them non-duplicated over the years?

Insomnia

I haven't posted about medical news in a while. I like reading about the health sections.

Apparently studies show, people are starting to use a lot more sleeping aids. Women more so than men. And I definitely understand why.
Almost all guys I know fall asleep before their heads hit the pillow. They can probably even sleep while standing.
Actually, not all. I know 1 guy who had trouble sleeping, until recently.

Maybe women are more worry warts. And they tend to go over things in their heads at night. If I am pretty tired, I just sleep. But if there is something on my mind, I could toss and turn and toss and turn. Its no fun. I haven't started taking any sleeping meds yet. I don't want to be a druggie.

Age of Conflict

I am in turmoil.
Maybe I am just really bad at living with ambiquity.

I really don't know what I want anymore.
I've been told that I am a very black and white person and I like extremes. Maybe I am a control freak and I want to know all my answers. I guess the more I am trying to find the answers and the more frustrated I get, the answers (if any) seems more elusive.

** deep breaths **

Funny radio commercial

I get quite a kick out of funny TV or radio commercials.
This one I just heard yesterday. It goes somewhat like this.
.......
"you feel a sensation, something you're not familiar with... you realize your zipper is open and the sensation was that of a cool breeze.. you lunge to get your zipper up with as much speed as you can muster... you're now cut off the open sensation, the good feel... why can't you have the good breeze and open feel as long as your underwear is clean... mini cooper convertible.. open, cool sensation without the embarassment."

well, it was somewhat like that... so funny.

Losing tongue

Well, not literally.
But I am forgetting my different languages and its not good.
I need to get my dictionaries and start reading up and brushing up on my languages. Almost feel like I am losing my roots.

ooh... was reading steph's blog today. she's crazy but sooo fun.

constructive conflicts - this is what one of my friends told me today. its interesting.

lemme put up a map.. brings back memories.

Rain rain go away!

I had family visit me, but the whole time my family was here, it drizzled and poured and gloomed up. It was kind of depressing, as we weren't able to sight see well.

Ok, onto my topic of the day. Why do I not want to live in the city?
Its a long drive and the traffic kills me. I would not be able to drop by home and I'd probably die of stress attack and road rage. Of course, there is always carpool, but I like doing things on my own, set my own schedule. The roads never seem big enough or just enough roads. No idea why there are parts of the hwy when its just plain slow.
Do I think being able to walk around town and grab food and other stuff is worth living downtown? No way!
Plus, there's is no good metro system here.

I have been talking to people who do a lot of extra-curricular activities, who have a relatively balanced life outside work, people who have real hobbies and while its inspiring, it makes me wonder about what the heck am I doing? btw, did I mention I think I am going through a quarter life crisis?

On the brighter side of things, I went fishing last weekend. It was raining (boo) and as a result, cold. But it was pretty fun, maybe because I was running and splashing around in the water, haha.. Yes, we caught some salmon.

Back to my confused world.
Whats my passion?
Whats my talent?
Whats my mission?
Whats the point?
Am I a lost soul?
Why do I have so many questions and so few answers?
Am I kidding myself?

Btw, I really hate how these stupid online photo storing sites are deleting my pictures/shrinking my pictures. I don't trust them anymore. I better make backups.